Dream.........!!!!

Aerosmith - Dream On

Hands down it is one of the best song ever.......Incredible song and it has become one of my ATF(all-time favorite)...........Music is truly eternal and the lines are spiritual..........This song did inspire me to give dream a second chance..........After i heard the complete song I tried to recollect my last dream but i  could not do so..........In a world of time when everything has layers i wasn't sure of all that popped in my head............on the same note, i ask myself "what is my dream?" a question shot...........I have had many wishes from the day i was born.........the colors i wished to appear again...........the odd things that popped up once in a while and did wicked actions to get a smile on my face, only to understand them as fellow humans also identified as well wishers, friends and family...........the times when i laid down without knowing the need for the wobbly things that stretched out of my body.

Everybody dream about things that would make them happy or fantasize to feel good...........At an early stage when i did not understand many things..........the need to get attention of one particular girl and all the things that i did to achieve that goal beyond every odds does bring chills to this moment.

After so many years of living through massive twists and turns i find it strange about someone asking me about my dream and i have no answers to the person asking me or to myself...........I have been blessed with the ability to do multiple things and also to do them differently.............I can associate with the phrase "jack of all trades" more close but when my elder brother added another statement with it that struck a deep scar on my thoughts and that was "jack of all trade but master of none".

It was an eye opener and it raised a serious question on my belief " do i want to be known as jack of all trade or do i want to be identified the master of particular trade? "...............I choose the later but it came with lot of baggage and created strong difficulty in choosing a the trade i wish to master............after a serious thought and consideration to my age and physical ability i choose to master in art............had this question been raised a decade earlier i may have choose a different field............will i ever master something? is something that only time can answer and i can be sure with hard work and determination anything is possible...............Hard work is something i am very comfortable with but determination is something i have to work on.

As the song rejuvenate the ideology to dream beyond time and space...........I proceed to dream like none other and work towards living that dream without sacrificing the ultimate realism of life, to be happy.

A humble and honest thank you note to Steve Tyler for giving a wonderful song that led me to Dream ON!!!

The Big ?

I came across an article of writer/future director of a movie dedicated only for the children. the entire article explains how a character named appu from the bengali movie "pathar panchali" by the legendary director "Satyajith ray" influenced him to change everything in his life. The character affected him to such an extend  that it became the window to world class cinema that taught him about movies made and dedicated for children in some countries. he has many points to justify the effects that these movies on children had in their country. As i continue to read the article a strange thought struck me harder right there. I had a similar thought that has been running in my mind. There are hardly any movies made for children in this billion dollar industry. I cannot find any good reason, why?

In the recent past i came across a chat show where the topic was based on the condition of today's children in their high school. my brother and i had to agree on so many terms discussed on that show. we realized and agreed upon one point that today's children are not children any more and the society does not do anything apart from killing their innocence. we are making machines which can talk and move around like humans. the education system is cracked to such an extend that there are many students who are able to score 99% in all subjects are unable to answer a simple question out of text book.

Recently i had the opportunity to teach the children from class 6-9 for three months. I witnessed a horror in everyone when they hear the word teacher. strange but it was true. over the period of three months i tried to bring some change in the way of teaching. i encouraged the students to be themselves around me. i accepted their comments and one liners. accepted their loss of interest on a subject for 'n' number of reasons.

avoiding all the age old routine of running test after each lesson and punishing them for poor performance, i was successful in breaking the silence in every student. anyone could speak their mind without any fear. after a while i did see a change in the way the children respond to my request in class but there was draw back on certain facts such as, not understanding the importance of learning. those children interested in studies or those who had already been manipulated by the system were the only ones to continue doing well in the exams. being kind and graceful to the students did not bring any change in their grades. though one should be moderate that change does not come over three months but i was disappointed to see there was no sign of change in any student i taught. in the end i had to become the monster. And i did punish the failures by canning them. Maybe what i did was wrong because i did not wish to punish anyone.

To flavor the odds one particular student created ruckus even before anything happened. I sent her home but her parents came back and blasted me. I had to apologize for my behavior. I regret asking apology for doing the right thing. There was hardly any punishment given to that student comparison to others.

I could not justify because they were blinded by love. My mother canned me for many reasons and did not question my teachers for punishing me when i was wrong. To their pity both the parent were not educated and their child showed no interest in any educational duties. I had no other option than punishing, for i remember giving enough excuses earlier and when there was no change i personally had spoken to her parents regarding the situation.  It was the parents responsibility to take care of their children after several warnings. The student failed to answer even the simplest questions in exam and scored only 6 out of 100 of which i had to give 2 marks deliberately for attempt alone. The student required monitoring but both her parents were working. Blaming and threatening to sue me over a simple corporal punishment was not important than the attention their daughter required.My point here is to be worried about the people on whom every method within the constrained circumstance tried upon goes in vain.

I was surprised by the parents  reaction as they had brought a clan to pledge a war against the administration and i pity their inability to see the righteousness behind.

Later that evening it did help me understand that a percentage of such people who handle situations emotionally in this world are the ones on whom the politicians let their charm work in their favor against all odds.

when we discuss about saving the child in every children, one cannot deny the fact that most of them in this world are influenced by the media, society, community and mostly by their parents. Everything about a child is influenced beyond description.   

How many parent in this world do really understand the importance of bringing up their children?

How many parents do approve that they are destroying every child in their children by falling into the trap?

A trap started with the right motive but one that has started to wither in change of time. I, terrified of committing a crime wanted to take time in becoming the teacher of change without getting affected by the nature of process. I have to mature not only to initiate but also see through the change that can be achieved over the years. 

I hope for the day to come where my day to day work would only be to make real contribution towards a better and bright future for this wounded world.

Being Happy

How to be happy?

Start your day with a smile on your face.

The restrained dawn strains behind the crowd.

Early Morning Walk

Its been 8yrs since i landed here.........I cared less about the tourist points around this city or any city for that matter........I don't like to visit a place for the sake of tourism unless there is something that interests me...........I like to travel around and i must say it all started with a walk...........Having said that in all these years i road around the city to all the places i liked or assumed i would like, basically to the places of silent and nature..........Wonder where am i leading?........it all comes down to the present day early morning as i struggle to leave my cozy bed that can easily create the illusion of time.........I keep taking new routes to walk/run in search of fresh thoughts...........sometimes the same route becomes mundane to cross over..........likewise today i took a detour and led my footsteps towards an unknown route..........After a while i felt like walking into a time capsule at every step i took..........back in mind i know there is a fort nearby and every person who has been to this city would have visited the spot.........but the lackluster mind did not let me visit the place in all these years.........with all the excitement of discovering a route to the fort i walked into a laid back village where children were still playing in the streets in this period of time unlike the modern kids engrossed into internet or computer games or attending additional classes to score additional marks in their upcoming exams..........These kids were living their age and it was a sight to be preserved in mind.........further as i climbed the highest point i see a blurred hill ahead with tree branches creating an illusion of a fort............I fix that hill as my destination point and walked ahead...........there were no vehicles around and hardly any human at sight...........I was enjoying the sight of blue sky and empty road...........then i came across another person with his headphones enjoying his morning walk............uncertain of the route that would take me to the fort i inquired him of the route.........to my surprise i had to take the opposite direction to reach the fort and supposedly i was fooled by the illusion that i saw earlier...........now i took a U turn and walked through the village...........i had a slight pain on my right foot and i did not want that to wither my effort to reach the desired destination point..........after walking a mile or so i saw the fort at a distance but still closer than the other hill i assumed to be the fort hill..........a fusion of pleasure and happiness filled my thoughts..........i moved ahead to reach the entrance as i was behind the fort and to be honest i had no more pain at my foot..........it made me realize the effect of happiness to our body..........i followed the boundary wall to the main gate but half way through i reached the fort entrance........... there was curve that one has to walk through to reach the tall beautifully sculpted wooden gate..........i wanted to travel through time to see how it would have been a few hundred years ago to go through the fort gate.............but that was just the beginning.............as i crossed  a foul staunch hit me hard and i do recollect the same smell from my past usually one would come across in any other poorly maintained monuments in India..........leaving the other horrible encroachments of houses and other shops filled through the way to the current fort entrance.........finally i reach the destination after one and half hour walk..........a kind of fulfillment engulfed my mind...........it was a beautiful way to start the day...............to my another surprise i discovered a shortcut to my room and found that fort was way closer than i thought........I decided to go inside the fort next time and that would be very soon. 

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Hog Heaven- Todd's Art!: Epic Mickey

Hog Heaven- Todd's Art!: Epic Mickey: This is one of the last pieces I did when I was at Disney. It was for the game Epic Mickey. I've never played the game and I have no idea...

marathon

It is new dream that am working on. I've been running for a while. one hot summer evening just as i get exhausted after my routine. I lay down trying to catch my breathe. It seems like sitting next to burning volcano and there is nothing i could do to escape the pain. All that i did was to accept the pain and try to find the humor on such situation. I couldn't think of a better time to express what i am going through. There it goes, one of my best writing


Burning inside out,

feeling the fire,

under the cold moon light.

looking at sky,

with billion micro lights,

... closing my eyes,

to measure the next mile,

whats wrong with me?

I feel no pain.

river that never dries,

flowing down the eyes,

mouthing words,

to a distant soul,

silence in reply.

I walk the empty road.